A Love Hate Thing

  When they’re stuck under one roof, the house may not be big enough for their hate...or their love.

  When Tyson Trice finds himself tossed into the wealthy coastal community of Pacific Hills, he’s ready for the questions, the stares and the feeling of not belonging. Not that he cares. After recovering from being shot and surviving the rough streets of Lindenwood, he doesn’t care about anyone or anything, much less how the rest of his life will play out.

  Golden girl Nandy Smith has spent most of her life building the pristine image it takes to make it in her hometown of Pacific Hills. After learning that her parents are taking in a troubled teen boy, Nandy fears her summer plans, as well as her reputation, will go up in flames.

  Now, with Trice living under the same roof, the wall between their bedrooms feels as thin as the line between love and hate. Beneath the angst, their growing attraction won’t be denied. Through time, Trice brings Nandy out of her shell, and Nandy attempts to melt the ice that’s taken over Trice’s heart and being. Only, with the ever-present pull back to the Lindenwood streets, it’ll be a wonder if Trice makes it through this summer at all.

  A LOVE HATE THING

  WHITNEY D. GRANDISON

  Whitney D. Grandison is an American young adult fiction writer. Some of her works can be found on Wattpad, one of the largest online story sharing platforms, where she has acquired over thirty thousand followers and an audience of over fifteen million dedicated readers. Her success on Wattpad has awarded her not only the title of Wattpad Star, but also the ability to work professionally for promotional campaigns for feature films such as Beyond the Lights and The Glass Castle. When she is not busy working on her next YA drama, she can be found obsessing over John Hughes classics, binge-watching Korean dramas or rooting for happy endings as she devours the latest YA release. Whitney currently lives in Akron, Ohio.

  To the resilient, intellectual, beautiful, joyous, capable, charismatic, undefeatable black boy.

  Contents

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  1 | Trice

  2 | | Nandy

  3 | Trice

  4 | Nandy

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  6 | Nandy

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  8 | Nandy

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  26 | Nandy

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  30 | Nandy

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  38 | Nandy

  39 | Trice

  40 | Nandy

  41 | Trice

  Playlist

  Acknowledgments

  The caterpillar is a prisoner to the streets that conceived it.

  Its only job is to eat or consume everything around it, in order to protect itself from this mad city.

  —Kendrick Lamar, “Mortal Man”

  1 | Trice

  Getting shot isn’t the worst part. It’s the aftermath that really fucks you up.

  Six months ago, on a dark December night, I was lying in a pool of my own blood on the living room floor. Six months later, I was sitting in a car on the way to a new town to start fresh. In some ways, yeah, the wound had healed. In others, it never would. I didn’t care, though. The last thing I’d cared about got me where I was.

  “You’ll like it there, Tyson. The Smiths have prepared a new home for you,” Misty from social services was saying as she drove the long stretch of highway toward Pacific Hills. It was only an hour away from where I used to live in Lindenwood, California.

  I didn’t respond. Home was a meaningless word to me now.

  Misty peeked at me. “Aren’t you going to say anything?”

  “I can leave as soon as I turn eighteen, right?” That was all that mattered. Fuck the rest. Five months, aka one hundred and sixty days, to go. On November twelfth, I’d be free.

  Misty sighed. “Look, I know what you’re going through—”

  “Word? You’ve been shot too and all’at?” I glanced her way. This lady was going home to a million-thread-count sheet-and-pillowcase set, resting easy once I was off her hands.

  Fuck outta here.

  “Well, no, but—”

  “Then shut up.” I faced the road ahead, done talking.

  Misty let out a breath, her light tan skin no doubt holding a blush upon her cheeks. “Do you kiss your—” She caught herself, as if realizing where she was about to go. “I—I’m sorry. You just shouldn’t speak that way.”

  I felt an ache in my chest, but I let it go.

  I didn’t care.

  Half a beat later Misty was rambling on about food. “Do you wanna stop and get something to eat, you must be starving.”

  “I told you I wasn’t hungry.”

  “Oh, well, are you nervous?”

  I hadn’t thought about being nervous or the fact that I would never return home again and lead a normal life. Not like I’d ever led one to begin with.

  “No.”

  “Well, good. Think of it as going to a sleepover at an old friend’s house.”

  One thing was true, the Smiths were old friends, but this setup was for the next five months.

  “It’s been ten years since I last saw them,” I spoke up. “This ain’t no damn sleepover, and it’s not about to be all kumbaya, neither.”

  At least they were black. Moving into the uppity setting of Pacific Hills was sure to be hell, but at least I would be with a black family. Even if I wouldn’t exactly fit in.

  I didn’t look the same. I didn’t act the same. I wasn’t the same. And I didn’t care.

  “Tyson—”

  “It’s Trice.” I had asked her to call me that from jump street. No one called me Tyson.

  I didn’t want to think about that. I didn’t want to think about anything. I didn’t care.

  “Trice, please, try? I know it’s been rough these past few months, but you have a chance at something fresh. The Smiths are good people, and Pacific Hills is a lovely town. I’m sure soon you’ll be close to your old self.”

  Misty had no clue what she was talking about. My old self? She obviously hadn’t paid attention to my file, or she would’ve been smart enough to leave it at fresh and not bring up my past.

  Tyson Trice was dead.

  He died on the floor in the living room that day, and he was never coming back.

  When I didn’t respond, Misty let up, probably getting that I didn’t give a shit either way.

  I didn’t care.

  2 | Nandy

  I told myself I didn’t care about the juvenile delinquent my parents were moving into our home. I told myself it was no big deal an ex-con would be sleeping right next door to me. I told myself that my parents hadn’t made the worst decision in everdom.

  It was just an everyday occurrence in the Smith household.

  Still, it wasn’t fair.

  As I paced around the pool in my backyard and complained to my best friend, Erica Yee, ov
er the phone, I expected her to be on my side and console me.

  “This was supposed to be a great summer and they pull this?” I whined.

  “You can still have a good summer,” Erica responded. “This doesn’t have to be the end.”

  But it was the end. My parents hadn’t gone into detail about the boy’s situation, just that he was in a “rough spot” and would be living with us for now. And that he was from Lindenwood, otherwise known as the ghetto.

  I’d never gone there, but I’d heard enough stories to know to be cautious. When my parents watched the news, there was always a segment on some tragedy that had happened in Lindenwood. Some high-speed chase, or little kids killed during a drive-by, or a robbery gone wrong among the usual clutter of crime that kept the LPD busy. Lindenwood was notorious for its drugs, thefts, assaults, and murders.

  I shivered.

  It probably hadn’t been the best idea to stay up lurking on the local news feeds right before the delinquent moved in.

  Everything would be ruined.

  “It is the end,” I insisted. “I mean, they spent all this time whispering and having these hushed conversations behind closed doors, and they barely revealed last night that he’s from Lindenwood!”

  Maybe I was acting childishly, but I felt like a kid with the way my parents had shut me out on the biggest detail of all when it came to the boy coming to stay with us out of nowhere. For two weeks, they’d been scarce on the topic and evaded any and all questions. Now it felt like they’d dropped a bomb on me.

  For all I knew, this kid was a total ex-gangbanger and my parents were intent on opening our home to wayward souls.

  Dramatic? Sure.

  Precautions? I was definitely taking them.

  “Right now, you’re probably pacing around your pool in a Gucci bikini while your happily-in-love parents are inside preparing dinner together. God, Nan, your life is incredibly boring. You could use this delinquent to spice things up.”

  Well, it was a Sunday evening, and the sun was beginning to set. My parents always made dinner together on Sundays, because they were both off work and able to do so.

  I stopped pacing and glanced down at my white Gucci bikini. “Yee, you try new hobbies to spice things up, not invite ex-cons to move in with you. Look, whatever, let’s just get away for a few hours. The longer I put a halt on this, the better.”

  “When is he supposed to show up?”

  “Sometime today. I just wanna blow it off. Maybe you, me, and Chad could grab a bite at the club or something.”

  My boyfriend’s family had a reserved table at the local country club. Anything would be better than dinner with the delinquent. I wasn’t 100 percent sure he was a criminal, but I wasn’t taking any chances. When it came to Lindenwood, you couldn’t be too sure.

  “You in?” I asked.

  “If we must.” Erica pretended to sound exasperated. “Call me with the details in twenty, okay?”

  “Deal.” I hung up and sighed, tilting my head back toward the darkening sky and questioning what I had done to deserve this.

  It was the first week of June, and school had ended last week. I intended to spend this summer before senior year going to beach bonfires and parties with my friends, lounging around, preparing for cotillion, and just staying as far away from home as possible.

  With a plan in motion, I went around my pool and stepped into our family room through the patio doors.

  “Shit!” I jumped back, dropping my phone and barely registering the sound of its rough slap against the hardwood floor.

  My parents were standing in the room with an Asian woman who was dressed in a violet-red pantsuit. But it was the boy beside her that startled me. He towered over my father, with broad shoulders and a wide chest, and arms that let me know he worked out, even though he seemed drenched in black with his long-sleeved shirt and matching pants. He had deep, dark brown skin with a clean complexion. But what really stood out was his hair. The boy had cornrows braided to the back of his head—well-aged cornrows.

  Ugh, he looked so unpolished.

  Suddenly I remembered my fallen phone and looked down to discover the screen was cracked. Because things aren’t messed up enough already.

  “And you remember our daughter, Nandy.” My mother played it cool, gesturing toward where I’d frozen near the patio doors.

  Everyone faced me, looking just as uncomfortable as I felt.

  Great, I was making my first impression completely inappropriate in a bikini.

  Awkwardly, I waved and forced a smile onto my face, showing off the result of two years of braces.

  “Nandy, this may be a little bit of a surprise, but you remember Tyson Trice, don’t you?” my father asked, looking between the two of us.

  At first, the name vaguely rang a bell, but then it hit me. Tyson, the boy I’d played with when I was younger. He used to come by in the summers when his grandfather would do lawn work around our subdivision. There’d been a few times during the school year when he’d come by too, but it was mostly a summer thing. Until he stopped coming altogether.

  The revelation brought a sense of relief followed quickly by a foreign anger that I couldn’t explain.

  That was then; this is now.

  Now Tyson Trice had hit a mega growth spurt and stood before me nearly a man, appearing not at all like the seventeen years young that we both were.

  “Right.” I nodded my head. “Tyson, hey.”

  Tyson didn’t shift focus to my body. He stared straight into my eyes and bore no friendly expression or a tell of what he was thinking. He was far across the room, but I didn’t need to be right up on him to know that he had the angriest eyes I’d ever seen. Dark, soulless abysses stared at me, making me shiver.

  Right on, Dad. Thanks for inviting a possible murderer into our home.

  “And this is our son, Jordy.” My mother didn’t miss a beat as she went on, downplaying how awkward everything was.

  Jordy, my eleven-year-old little brother, was sitting against the ottoman, playing a video game on his handheld.

  Tyson glanced at Jordy, and I felt protective, seeing curiosity briefly cross his face as he laid eyes on my Thai brother.

  Jordy looked up from his game. “Hey.”

  Tyson lifted a brow and turned to face my parents in that familiar way most outsiders looked at my family once they realized a black family was raising a Thai son.

  Jordy smirked, shaking his head. “They wish they could’ve spawned a kid as good-looking as me.”

  My father chuckled. “We spoke about adopting for years after having Nandy, and right around the time she was eight, we got approved and Jordy came into our lives.”

  “He was just two years old,” my mother gushed. “He was so adorable, we fell in love with him instantly.”

  I came more into the room, wanting to shield my brother from Tyson. Someone had to think of the kids.

  “Nandy, why don’t you go put some clothes on.” It wasn’t a question. My mother was ordering me to cover up and look more presentable for our guests.

  “I was actually on my way out to meet up with Erica, we’ve got this—”

  “Right now?” she asked. “We’ve got company.”

  I glanced at Tyson, hating him again for spoiling my summer. I’d seen him, and I’d spoken to him. What more did she want?

  “Yeah, but Erica and I had plans to go to the country club and talk about cotillion.”

  My mother pursed her lips. “Nandy—”

  “You know what,” my father stepped in, “that’s a great idea. Nandy could take Tyson and the two could get reacquainted, and that’ll give us time to talk to Ms. Tran here.”

  My eyes practically shot out of their sockets. There was no way in hell I’d share a car with Tyson.

  After thinking it over, my mother seemed to agree
. “That is a great idea. We can all sit down together later.”

  My jaw hit the ground.

  I shook my head. “You know, never mind, suddenly I’m not as hungry as I thought. In fact, I feel sick to my stomach. I think I’ll go lie down.”

  By the way my mother narrowed her eyes, I knew she’d be giving me hell later about my behavior. I didn’t care. It wasn’t fair to me to force some scary-looking guy into my hands to be babysat.

  With one final look at the newest arrival to the Smith household, I picked up my phone from the floor and made my way up to my room.

  * * *

  Long after Ms. Tran had left and my mother had scolded me in our family office, I sat in my room, maneuvering with a broken phone as I texted my boyfriend. Going on a hunger strike didn’t last long for me. After having refused to go down for dinner, I was starving.

  My cell phone chirped as Chad texted me back.

  Chad: Outside

  Me: Thank God

  My parents were probably still up, no doubt discussing either my punishment or how we were going to work Tyson into the family.

  With their bedroom being in a different wing of our house, sneaking out was always an easy feat. Still, I made sure to keep extra quiet as I crept out of my room and slipped down the staircase.

  Chad was waiting for me out front. He’d been pacing back and forth in front of our walk as he waited, and as I stepped outside I was elated to see him.

  “I’m thinking sushi, you in?” I asked as I walked past him, heading for his car.

  “Yeah, sure. What’s going on?” Chad asked as he caught up to me and fell into step.

  I peered up into his blue eyes. “You don’t want to know.”

  Chad ran a hand through his auburn hair, appearing confused but conceding. “O-kay, let’s go get some sushi.”

  At the feeling of being watched, I glanced back at my house. On the second floor, through one of the large bay windows, I caught sight of a silhouetted figure.

  It was him.

  Creep.

  I turned back to Chad and reached out and caught his hand. “Yeah, let’s get out of here.”